Dancing 4 Destiny 2019

I can’t believe that it is already that time again!

I feel like we’ve only just had the last event!!!

This year will be bigger and better and I can not wait as we have been given the go ahead!!!!

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If you live in the Midlands and have never experienced a Dancing 4 Destiny event, we’d love to welcome you to join us this year.

Details can be found below;

Saturday 29th June

1pm – 5pm

Low Hill Community Centre

Kempthorne Avenue

Wolverhampton

WV10 9JJ

Dancers are NEEDED

Stallholders are NEEDED

Donations from businesses are NEEDED

More details coming soon….

Celebrating Destiny’s 2nd Birthday

So today, we celebrate Destiny’s 2nd Birthday.

She’ll always be in our hearts and always be a big part of our family.

Everyday we wander who she would have been and we can only imagine the bond that she would have had with her and her big brother having such a small age gap between them.

Daddy felt it so much more this year. Please continue to keep him in your prayers.

After we left the cemetery, we had chocolate cake and her siblings blew out the number 2 candle. We reflected on her very short life and thanked her for leading us as a family to God.

Happy 2nd Birthday Destiny xx

God didn’t take my baby!

I’m sharing this with you just seconds after having a conversation with a wonderful woman who works for Revelation TV.

I shared my testimony with her & it again highlighted just how wonderful God is 🙌🏾

I told her about my blog and she said it was important that I know that God didn’t take my baby. I know this as God isn’t capable of such EVIL!

The Devil comes to steal our joy but if we trust in the Lord, HE turns everything around that the devil meant for harm and makes it good.

Destiny is happy, I WILL see her again. She is with Jesus and in no pain. How can I not be happy about that?

Of course I miss her & yes, my tears still flow but not as much now because this world is full of evil that she will never have to experience.

Losing Destiny made me lose myself. I was in so much shock and lost faith in this cruel world. The only way I could survive and get through my grief was to turn to Christ. Jesus saved me 🙏🏾

So that’s what I mean, I HAD to lose my Destiny (my daughter) to find my destiny (Gods purpose for my life)

My path has never been clearer, this is what happens when you trust in Jesus. I’m finally seeing bit by bit who God created me to be.

I will continue to trust in the Lord 🙏🏾

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”

Proverbs 3:5 KJV

Lonely

This time last year, I was ‘shopping’ for our daughters funeral. I hated every second of it!

The one thing that kept me going was being around others. Visits, cards being sent to the house, Facebook messages, calls, just being thought of.

Unfortuately, things change after the funeral. I’m sure that anyone who has ever lost anyone will agree.

I feel ‘just left’ Thankfully I have God whenever I need Him.

People don’t purposely do this, it’s just life! While you are alive, there’s things to do. People ha e to return to work, their normal day lives but I’m ‘just left’ with the grief, pain, anger, confusion – what great feelings 😔

Amongst all of my negative feelings, I have no choice to keep finding positives. It’s how I keep going.

With Malaika being off school all week, it’s been a struggle. Watching her so weak and tending to her every need when I can just about tend to myself. Oh and you do remember I have a 2 year old right??

Hats off to all the mums with more than two children 💪🏾 This would have been my reality but God knows…

I wake up and each day is a struggle, very little to look forward to and of course, everyone’s opinion…

You need to just ‘get out’

You need to ‘Keep praying’

You need to ‘do what you love’

You need ‘to get exercise’

No, you need to stop offering solutions to what YOU see as a problem.

Try asking me what I need, i’d be happy to tell you but could you deliver?

I’m having a bad day, can you tell?

One of my children is in the cemetery and no suggestions will ever change that.

Help me to live in pain because that’s my reality. I WILL hurt for the rest of my life and only those that have experienced what I’m going through can help.

Everyone who thankfully hasn’t, just be present. You tell me what I need but all I need is YOU.

Happy 1st Birthday Destiny 💔

Happy Birthday my youngest Princess 👼🏿

Mummy has no words. Totally heartbroken 💔

Would be a dream to be able to hold you, kiss you & watch you giggle today while eating your birthday cake & playing with your big sister & big brother 😢

Just so tired from grief. I’ve been told it gets better. I pray it does 🙏🏾

Until we meet again,

Mummy 💕

Christmas without Destiny

We never got to experience a Christmas with Destiny as a physical family member in our home. However, she was tucked away safely in my tummy the Christmas of 2016.

We were so excited for her arrival the following April and had no idea what horrific events were about to unfold in just a matter of days!

A year on and the memories are still so fresh and just as clear.

Christmas 2017 was supposed to be such a happy time. Both mummy & daddy with our three bundles of joy. Instead we sat watching our two living children playing whilst all the time wandering what their interaction with their little sister would have been like.

It’s the wonders, the what ifs, the not knowing that does the damage. My mind is on constant overload.

It wasn’t the Christmas we had hoped for but it was surely one that we’ll never forget.

Our family forever broken, always one missing 💔

Destiny’s Headstone 😍

Hello everyone 👋🏾

What do you think? It’s taken us a while to share but this will be Destiny’s headstone. The picture does not do it justice but it’s going to be gorgeous!!!!!

Shiny black granite with shocking pink writing & decoration such as pink stones & vases.

Slight detail change – next to the little infant holding the teddy at the bottom, will now read SAFE IN THE ARMS OF JESUS.

We are so excited to get it laid down next year!

We are over half way with our target and we thank each and every person who has been kind enough to donate.

Nobody HAS to help us, nobody has to do anything but YOU HAVE & we are TRULY grateful.

We look forward to thanking you all in person…. (keep watch on this blog)

We originally set up a GoFundMe page but have been exhausted with topping up everyone’s donations due to the fees. Instead, we would love any further donations to go straight into the account below ran by myself & Destiny’s Dad.

Details are as follows;

Santander

Mrs M M Clarke

Sort code 09-01-27

Account Number 97280273

God Bless you all 🙏🏾