This time last year, I was ‘shopping’ for our daughters funeral. I hated every second of it!
The one thing that kept me going was being around others. Visits, cards being sent to the house, Facebook messages, calls, just being thought of.
Unfortuately, things change after the funeral. I’m sure that anyone who has ever lost anyone will agree.
I feel ‘just left’ Thankfully I have God whenever I need Him.
People don’t purposely do this, it’s just life! While you are alive, there’s things to do. People ha e to return to work, their normal day lives but I’m ‘just left’ with the grief, pain, anger, confusion – what great feelings 😔
Amongst all of my negative feelings, I have no choice to keep finding positives. It’s how I keep going.
With Malaika being off school all week, it’s been a struggle. Watching her so weak and tending to her every need when I can just about tend to myself. Oh and you do remember I have a 2 year old right??
Hats off to all the mums with more than two children 💪🏾 This would have been my reality but God knows…
I wake up and each day is a struggle, very little to look forward to and of course, everyone’s opinion…
You need to just ‘get out’
You need to ‘Keep praying’
You need to ‘do what you love’
You need ‘to get exercise’
No, you need to stop offering solutions to what YOU see as a problem.
Try asking me what I need, i’d be happy to tell you but could you deliver?
I’m having a bad day, can you tell?
One of my children is in the cemetery and no suggestions will ever change that.
Help me to live in pain because that’s my reality. I WILL hurt for the rest of my life and only those that have experienced what I’m going through can help.
Everyone who thankfully hasn’t, just be present. You tell me what I need but all I need is YOU.